i wish

i wish i wasn’t stupid.

i wish i could understand things.

 i wish i could wake up in the morning and feel normal.

i wish i could socialize with people and talk to people without them laughing

i wish i wasn’t stupid.

i wish i could remember what people told me.

i wish i could look in the mirror and not be discussed.

i wish i could be myself.

i wish i wasn’t stupid.

i wish i had a real friend that i could trust.

i wish i wasn’t afraid of opening up to people.

i wish i wasn’t afraid to say what i really think about things.

i wish there was somebody who cared.

i wish i wasn’t stupid.

i wish i could cry and feel better about myself.

i wish i had something to offer this world.

i wish i could be like them.

i wish i could blend in.

i wish people would like me.

i wish i wasn’t stupid.

i wish i were dead.

i wish i never existed.

i wish i could stop feeling like there is a brick in my stomach every time i get up.

i wish i wasn’t afraid of reality.

i wish i wasn’t stupid.

but maybe im not stupid.

maybe i just wonder about things nobody takes the time to think about.

maybe i am smart.

maybe i am just different.

is being different so bad?

is being different intimidating?

maybe im not stupid.

maybe.

just… maybe.

 

 

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